Lately I've realized that I've been avoiding God the Person. Last week when my friend asked me, "What has God been teaching you lately?" I didn't really have an answer. That sort of thing had stopped being something I think about too much anymore.
I think this has been going on for quite awhile now. Its slipped under the radar screen though because actually, God is a big part of my life. I'm a vegetarian because of God. I go to church because of God. I don't have sex because of God. I try not to support sweat shops or other forms of exploitative business because of God. I conduct my personal relationships in a certain way because of God. I'm starting a community house next year because of God. The list goes on and on. God is my reason for the way that I am living.
While that's all good, its caused me to interact with God in such a way that I do not think of Him as a Friend or a Father but simply as the justification behind my sense of reality. God is a concept, a concept that invented another concept called redemption, and I'm devoted to having that redemptive concept infiltrate my life. Its a beautiful philosophy and I love it.
But at one point, I just really loved God the Person. I loved going on walks with God and feeling His love shine down on me. I loved having every thought be like a prayer. I loved actually having a sense of God whispering this, that or the other thing into my heart on a regular basis.
I miss that. I miss God.
I seriously need to spend some quality time just with God.
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